November 23, 2011

6:42AM

Just saw Breaking Dawn pt. 1 yesterday. :) Tomorrow's Thanksgiving. The scale can wait!

6:43AM

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October 1, 2011

3:21PM

I've made up my mind on my plans for October..

• To workout 1,000min total.. (at least)
• To workout 5/7 days of the week
• To hit the 40lb mark

And that's it. :) It's very doable and I'm feeling pretty confident. What I'm doing different is that there won't be so much pressure on food. I can go up to my calorie goal and that's it. In June I was eating between 500-600 cals a day. As Scrosher said on MFP.. let's make October "a skinny one"! My boys are back on tour and right away I feel energized!! I've been exercising and today I lost a pound. I ♥ them! I'll always be thankful that they give me the strength I need.

3:25PM

September 30, 2011

10:41PM

Happy birthday Jo. Umm this is the last day of September.. The month in which I would've seen my favorite band in concert. Luckily they're back on tour now. Yay. :/ I wanted to freakin go.

Tomorrow I'll be really back on track. I've set my goals. See ya September. It could've been more.

10:44PM

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September 8, 2011

8:09AM

What I'm doing up at 8AM, I'll never know. Great news!! I've been losing weight.. Super excited about that. I've been taking walks and eating better. :) It's been rainy for the last couple of days.

It's so cold right now I can barely write, well type. Whatever. Oh! We might be taking another trip to Oklahoma! Too early to really tell though. Anyway I think I've said the important parts. Losing weight, finally. It feels good! I hope I can stick to it. :)

I meditated two nights ago. I swear that what it was. I always do great when I meditate. I realize how grateful I am for everything I have, I love my life. ***

8:15AM

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September 1, 2011

2:47PM

*sighs* Today is a sort of depressing day for me, but it's also the start of me tackling what needs to be done. September, it's just you and me this month. I plan on kicking butt... but I'm tired already.

Yesterday I was supposed to add one last post of my August Challenge. But to be honest, August was a major flop anyway. Today stands for so many things. I know what I should be doing today, where I should be, and who I should be seeing with my very own eyes. But I've been through all this before.

Yesterday I finally went to the gym (at the worst possible moment I might add). Prayer session nearby and some girls from school just had to walk in. Whatever.

This is Day 1. Day of you-know-what.

2:51PM

August 29, 2011 - August Challenge Day 29

5:02PM

     Just lost two lbs today.. although I also just gained that! Whatever.. this is just a quick entry because my mom and sis could step through the door at any minute. So I've been working on my GED class. I'm finally at my social studies section... soo much to read. It's okay though; at lest I'm taking care of business. Sad news: today would've been the day we left for the trip to Colorado.. the trip with the concert.. I can't wait until they reschedule the show!!!

There's so much to do! I'm trying to get my license, get a haircut, get a pair of converse, get my GED, lose 25lbs by Thanksgiving, and I have about 1,000 books to read!! I just might explode. Yesterday I saw 3 cute guys while I was on my walk. 3! One even talked to me, lol he said.... "excuse me." Well there ya go.  The next fews days may be depressing knowing that I should be on my trip but it's fine.

The good news is August is almost over.. wait that isn't very good. That isn't very good at all. I'm running out of time to lose the weight before my sisters (and now maybe my aunt and cousin too) get here and I wanted to take my GED test in November..... yikes. Too many things at once. I'll just keep trying my best. It's the only choice I have.

What I really need to do is meditate.. It really gets me focused and on track. Maybe I'll do it tonight. Although I'm in movie-mode again.. *sighs*

It rained today.. hard, with creepy thunder too. I think I've said what I needed to say. Oh yeah, the guy was wearing green. Actually two of them were. One on the bridge and the one who spoke to me. The other guy on the bridge was wearing a hat and a white shirt. I hope I didn't come off as mean when I passed the guy, I mean I did have my headphones on.. I did smile at him. Not sure if he saw it. XD

5:10PM

August 24, 2011 - August Challenge Day 24

1:13PM

A lot has been going on recently! The good news ... I've totally maintained my weight even though I haven't been eating any different. My fillings are finally done! I actually had a good experience this time. It's bittersweet since that makes me realize how much I was getting ripped off before. Thanks Dr. Meyer/s. Last but not least, I signed up for a GED prep course. At universalclass.com. I'm on my way ladies and gentlemen.  Today is my 100th day in a row logging on MFP. It is also 3 months and 1 day until Thanksgiving. Which means, I have 3 months to lose about 25lbs. I want my weightloss to be noticeable when my older sisters come to town. All in all, I'm feeling accomplished. :) I even got Michelle another gift about two days ago. I came upon it in a Smithsonian magazine. And no, it's not jewelry. Rainbow anyone? Can fairies come to play? Let's read and see!

I might go to a restaurant later but I just be ordering soup. :) Feeling hungry right now, and a little tired. Au Revoir!

1:24PM

--Ahh! Last night's dream consisted of Cindy and us at a store.. leaving it during the day. Then later it was night a mansion. She said she was coming for Christmas but we reminded her it was for Thanksgiving.. I was late-night snacking on hot dogs and too much mustard on a plate. I was scared. There was lighting. Mom woke up and I think she caught me eating..

Hmm ... there's flan in the fridge ...

1:26PM

August 19, 2011 - August Challenge Day 19

2:13PM

So I must admit that yesterday's weigh-in certainly didn't go the way it should've. I gained a pound. But today I lost that pound. Yesterday I went out for a 15min walk to Roady's. We were talking if we wanted to go a restaurant.. They were seriously considering McDonald's since it was right next door but I actually would've prefered to go back home and have my tuna salad. We did go back home, I had my salad, we played Parcheesi.. and then I ended up cheating again. On peanut butter and scrambled eggs. Soo yummy. I haven't had scrambled eggs in soo long. Just egg whites. Definitely not the same thing!

So last night, my sis and I were throwing things at the ceiling fan.. long story short we had a lot of laughs but it woke my mom. Finally when she got sick of it, she threatened school. This made me mad and definitely killed our buzz. Then I realized I wanna hurry up and get my GED while I'm still 16. It sounds better that way. So I'm thinking November will be when I take my test. On top of that I also realized that I'm soo sick of being in the 200s. I'm bored of not seeing any new numbers! So I've decided I'm gonna do it right untill I get to ONE-derland again and then hopefully I'll continue to do it right.

We'll see how it goes. I don't expect to be perfect.. not like I was in June. I realize that I was only doing so well in June because I was seeing new numbers on that scale. The lowest numbers I'd ever seen. I need to inspire myself again!! I can't wait! Plus I wanna show everyone how cute I really can be! I'll knock everyone's socks off. I swear I will..

2:21PM

August 17, 2011 - August Challenge Day 17

12:18PM
It's been a while since I've last posted. Yesterday was my dad's b-day.. so I called him up. I've watched lots of movies and finished The Bad Queen. Excellent book. But one of the best thing's that have happened to me is that I think I'm finally back on track. I've taken a walk for 3 days straight now and I'm finally staying under my calorie goal! I've been losing weight. 1 pound a day! I'm feeling pretty good right now.

I started getting serious once my mom said my older sisters might be coming to town for Thanksgiving.. this made my sister nervous. So really, the both of us decided we want to lose 30lbs by then. Which means my goal is to be 175 by Thanksgiving. So far I'm already 4lbs in.. but I haven't weighed myself yet. Super excited about that too.

Last night was one of a kind.. When my sis and I headed out for our walk, she was ahead of me by about 10-15ft. I caught up with her and then the race was on. By the time we got back to the house I had to end up taking a shortcut to beat her. One of the most comptetitive walks..ever. Anyway it led to a fight. Then later on, my sis was fighting with my mom about her refund that she needed to get. I ended up solving the problem but I also ended up seeing the gift my sis planned for me. But to make things better I watched Amadeus last night. A classic that I remember my mom watching. I was crying within the first 10min of the movie. I've never cried so much during a movie.. The beautiful music is overwhelming for me. I. just. love. music.

Not sure what else to add except that in less than a week I'll be getting my fillings. I've been watching Lost again, finally. I'm on season 3. Feeling a little hungry and I need a shower. But I think I'm gonna weigh-in soon. That should be pleasing today. :)
12:28PM

August 11, 2011 - August Challenge Day 11

Today's Day 11. The scale was on my side today. I have no idea how that happened. Today I'm not gonna wish anything because I know I do better when I don't make any promises. Last night I dream of being at a gas station getting Coke Zero for the people I was traveling with. But there wasn't any.. There was some organic looking bottles that Michelle said reminded her of me. There were some guys who were willing to help me find the Coke but I assured them that it wasn't there. Another dream I had was that we were collecting things around the house. Nail polish and colored pencils are the only things that I can remember. Some of them belonged to my grandma. People came over and gave us the 3rd degree.. They obviously assumed that we weren't treating our grandma right. I hated it! I think she was in on it or something.

Anyway yesterday we went to Mimi's Cafe and I must say I had a splendid time. The food was terrific and there was amazing service. Thanks Jeff Trainer. It's such a coincidence that our waiter's name was Jeff Trainer because I was watching Working Girl yesterday and the guy in the movie's name is Jack Trainer. Ah! I also watched Born Yesterday. Seems like I've been in a Melanie Griffith mood lately.

I had a fight with Michelle.. I hate when that happens. Seems like we do that a lot. She's always assuming stuff about me and I freakin' hate it! Yesterday she claimed that the only reason I've been backing up our Blazer is because she assumes I want to drive it TN.. Just like C. I got soo angry! Today she assumed that I didn't like a joke she said or something.. And that I liked these girls in a picture and that's why I didn't want to delete them..

Whatever.. last night we watched the Shania Twain movies we have of her. I love her..well the old her. I grew up with her. She's so beautiful. I think she'll be another inspiration for my weightloss. Right now I hear Michelle ripping papers up in her room. I wonder what the hell she's doing in there because I know she's mad at me. Happy Birthday Francine! My fellow *** buddy! Yesterday was Janelle's b-day but I didn't make as quite of a big deal over it.. XD
5:23PM

August 10, 2011 - August Challenge Day 10

12:57PM
Yesterday I tried to enter Day 9 from my ipod, but when I added the pic, I guess it just didn't work. Sad that it looks like I missed a day but whatever.

As for yesterday, food-wise.. need I say anything I haven't said before? It didn't go well. As for today, seems like I've gained a little. Ugh I can't shake it. Today I'm gonna try my hardest! I sound stupid I think. I keep saying that I'm going to succeed but I can't even behave for ONE day. I hoping today will be the day. Yesterday, we ran some errands. Went to Wal-Mart, the Corrales library and then to Rose Garden. Our favorite little Chinese food joint. I watched A Nightmare On Elm Street. The new one. And then I watched Curse Of The Golden Flower. Read a little of The Bad Queen. I'm a little more than halfway done.

Today I woke up with a smile on face. I had a good dream. In the dream I was helping Paul and his friend with the internet. I had to use my iPod and somehow I had to go through my Facebook page to get to like, Google, or something. Next thing you know we're at my house on the kitchen floor. Paul\'s in the dining room, watching us. His friend with the golden hair, lovingly touched my cheek and then started fixing my earrings. My sister walked out of her door and saw him touching me. It looked as if he had just kissed me. I didn't want her thinking that, so I got all nervous. But he just kept fixing my earring as if she wasn't there. She walked back in her room and that was that. Then he said something kind of loud and it woke my mom up. I had to yell something back at her like "good night" or something. Then she walked in and asked me about the internet. She didn't even care that I was on the floor with two boys in the house.

I think two days ago, I said I was going to write down the 4 dreams I had.. But I only remember one. Paul was in a classroom. I handed him a bag of cut up bananas and they were all soggy and gross. I was walking out and he yelled something about the bananas that embarassed me. Then I sat down next to him and he was painting a tree with blood. It was beautiful but at the bottom is was blue. Didn't look like blood but I knew it was.
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1:43PM
Ahh good news!! I just remembered my dreams. Because of my genius to email them to myself so I wouldn't forget. AND.. I just emailed one of my favorite authors. The author of The Bad Queen - Carolyn Meyer! Yes, ladies and gentlemen Carolyn Meyer is a all-time favorite. I've practically grown up with her books. Specifically her "royal" books. I love all things renaissance and royal. Marie Antoinette and Anne Boleyn are two of my favorite people. :) And yes, she written amazing books on both. Actually, The Bad Queen is about Marie Antoinette.

As for the dreams (charms) one was where I was in the parking lot and I saw C standing by his car. I approached him slowly. The car was not new and it was black. I called his name but he proceeded to get in. I called again, louder this time. He got out his car and looked at me. He smiled I think. I told him that I didn't want to be one of those crazy fans.. but that I absolutely loved him. When he heard this, he walked towards me for a hug. I told my insides burned and that I was nervous. He hugged me longer. I told him my hands were fucking numb. I think later in the dream I knew that I had a piece of paper and a camera lol. I wanted to sign, but I felt like just another stupid fan of his. He was very sweet.
Another dream I had was that we were at a Chinese food restaurant. I ordered fried rice with lo mein on top. Big plate. I was with mom, Michelle and TL. Two girls came up to us and asked if we wanted a cigarette.. I wanted to say yes. They walked out. I ran after them.. and pretended to return their lipgloss and asked for that cigarette once I was out of my family's sight.  I walked back inside and hid the cig in my pocket.
Another dream was that I was rearranging or cleaning the fridge. Michelle was behind me. I saw a couple desserts in there. I remember carrot cake. She didn't want to mess with it. I accidently dropped it but it was in a container so it was okay...

Just got a wonderful reply from Mrs. Meyer. She understands my story.. just what I needed. :) Maybe... just maybe. never mind.
2:00PM ~ Michelle's still sleeping..

August 8, 2011 - August Challenge Day 8

6:22PM
I only have time for a quick post. Today was kind of chaotic but I'm glad it's mainly over. As for my challenge I did extraordinarly well. I even got in a 15min walk with my mom as we went to pick up the car from the shop. We went to like 13 different places. Plus I even got it a gift for my sis. With trips to the library, Staples, Wal-Mart, the post office.. ahh. It's good to be in a nice air conditioned home. :) Soo happy with how I did today. I even got started on reading a book last night. The Bad Queen. Looks pretty good so far. It's about Marie Antoinette. Which I saw the movie again last night. Not sure what else to say. We might pick up my grandma tomorrow. For now, I just wanna curl up with my book or watch a movie. Good day even though we found out our radiator was cracked. We managed to get it fixed on short notice. Mercury is definitely in retrograde but at least we've been able to remedy the situations. Day 8 = Mission Accomplished.

Yesterday I also watched Shining Through.. Good movie. I know my mom loves it. Hmm.. Feeling kind of nervous that the "fam bam" is so nearby, with my mom watching a movie and my sis laying down. I'll call it a day.. A pretty good one.

6:28PM

August 7, 2011 - August Challenge Day 7

1:47PM
I got up later than I like. Yesterday, I kind of went overboard at the last minute. Protein shakes.. hmm I can't remember what else. But the absolutely fantastic news is that the scale didn't go up, which if it had I would've rightfully deserved it. So I'm thanking God, because each day that the scale is cooperating I know it's a sign of encouragement. Spaghetti tonight, ugh with Texas toast. Shouldn't be good. I think I need to call my mom for more lettuce.

Kelly (the cat) is right in my way of the computer.. She just sat down. Today she groomed the little one even though she doesn't like him. She hisses at him, growls, but yet cats still have that, idk, motherly instinct?? They take care of each other. Whether they growl through the process or not. Families are like that too I guess. At least mine is.

Yesterday I bought two Christmas gifts for my sis. Feeling good about that. Lately I've been in a walking mood. I MISS IT! It was my time to get out and think... or just sing. I love to sing.

Is anyone reading this?? I feel like Julie in Julie & Julia where she felt as if she were sending things into this massive void. I mean this is doing some good for me. Keeping me a little bit on track but I would really like some feedback!

I hear a cat mewing outside..it's breaking my heart. Nearly 2PM and I feel like I've got a handle on Day 7.. of course the day isn't over yet and I crave sweets at night. I used to not crave anything! We'll see. I will, of course, try my best. Hmm. That thought is odd. I haven't really tried my best.. That MUST change. I have the best resistance out of anyone I've ever known! I'm gonna post this and come back to write my chaoctic dream of mine. I must've had a pretty active brain last night.
2:00PM

August 6, 2011 - August Challenge Day 6

11:46AM
So, number one, I'm proud I've been keeping up with my blogging. Even though it's only been 6 days.. I know this is a true achievement. Number two, I lost weight! Still trying to catch up to where I was but by the end of the month, I should see some new numbers on that scale! :D

As for my August Challenge, yesterday went pretty well all day long. Except I gave in to the corn bread and then the chips, the salsa, avocado, a chocolate protein shake I did not need. All in all I was prbably at 13-1,400 calories. Though I stopped calculating after the tuna patties. But I did get in all my water! Yes! That's a major plus! Even though I had to get up and pee in the middle of the night, :/ I'd rather do that than retain water from sodium. Bleh!

My little horoscope that I get sent to my phone said to not be so pessimistic. My glass is more than half full. It's true.. Everything's been working out recently. Except for the damn dentist and concert. But even with that, a lot worse could've gone down.

I think today will be another good day food-wise. It's gonna be hard to calculate tostadas. But they'll be soo worth it! Always are.

I've been in the movie-watching, Christmas gift-giving, craft making mood recently.. and it feels pretty good. :)
11:55AM

12:13PM
I was just roaming around myfitnesspal and I came across a girl who had a goal set for the date of the concert. I choked up. Couldn't breathe and got sad. Tearing up. Even to myself, I sound like an immature brat. But I really was affected. I don't know.. Just thought I'd say this.
12:16PM

5:14PM
Just remembered my dream from last night. I was at a drive-through and I saw Jessie and the black cat in a car. I remember not being able to make a big deal about it because I didn't want anyone else to see them. Light blue, old car. They looked normal.

Just finished watching Crash..
5:16PM

August 5, 2011 - August Challenge Day 5

2:06PM
So my goal for this week (starting today) was staying under my calorie goal of 1,200. So far, so good. My sis had a stroke of genius last night and came up with the idea of tuna fish patties. Yummy! And low calorie! Yay! Today if I stick with the plan, I should eat only 468cals. Very low, I know.. I just need to shock the body a little. I might give up and have some corn bread. The scale was pleasing today! Yay! I actually lost weight. All I did was some cleaning.
I had a pretty nice dream last night. Michelle and I plus some other guy were throwing frisbees on the beach. I was holding Razz in my left hand. I showed Michelle a trick to throw it better. Twist of the wrist. It was a yellow frisbee.. Maybe some blue and red ones too. Then I was helping Michelle through a spooky house kind of thing. It was school but it looked like we were on a cruise ship. No water though. We stopped off at the bathroom. I was worried the bell was gonna ring. There was water dripping at the counter, we sat down and played piano on it. I was helping Michelle with it. More like showing her.. I was better. Then a guy came in. Wearing black and white. Kind of like Simon's outfit. His eyes were brown. He was very mature. I liked him. He sat down to do the piano with us. He was surprised I made so little mistakes. There was a ticker. The bell rang and he stood up. I hugged him and asked him what grade he was in. He said 10th. Then Michelle piped and said I was supposed to be in 11th. I was so disappointed. I wished he was older. (In real life I wouldn't have cared, he was so attractive. I didn't even see his face.. But damn. He acted so hot.) Then we were taking tests in a closed environment. I didn't like it. I had to find a group. Then we needed to make a group of 5 back in the classroom. I saw Krystal and maybe Cheyenne. We had two girls too many.
Cute guy, tuna patties, and music. Good start to the day.
2:23PM
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royal pains..

So today on my profile on myfitnesspal, I had to erase the part where it said that my reward would be a concert.. :( :( I already mentioned to everyone that I'd have a hard time working on my weight after the concert. But now... I mean I don't even get to go. I know I sound like a whiny little teenager, which I guess that's exactly what I am. But I really have been putting my all, all year, for this. I worked hard for the first concert, and I worked even harder for the second.


It's okay... it's okay, it's okay. I know that they'll reschedule and lucky for me, my mom and my sis are ready to go to that show. And so am I. I think it could be a birthday present depending on the new dates. So, even though I had to delete the statement, REWARD: CONCERT!!!!! in the long run, I suppose it's true. I mean at some point, we will get to go. And to be honest, I don't think I was ready anyway. I wasn't where I wanted to be for my weight, and everything was pretty chaotic! I think we'll be sad for the rest of the month, especially the day the concert would've happened, but I believe it's all meant to be.
12:06PM

August 4, 2011 - August Challenge Day 4

11:37AM
Finally I'm sitting at a computer writing an entry instead of using my iPod. With the threat of my sister waking up and Kelly (the cat) obstructing my view, I'm gonna write as quickly as possible.

So, Day 4, on myfitnesspal I've logged in for 80 days in a row! I'm proud of myself.  I remember when it was like 25 days in row. So that shows my commitment I guess. I'm committed. Plus the scale was kind of friendly today considering what I've been doing and NOT doing the last couple days. With all this good news I'm feeling pretty inspired. I was talking to my sis last night about what my goals are. To tackle eating right and exercising at the same time is too much for me. That's not how I succeed. I usually start with my food. So, my goal (starting tomorrow I think, only because I have some food I need to finish off) is to at least stay under or at my goal of 1,200 calories.

The other cat is rubbing against my foot.

So with everything that's gone down, I figure it could all be so much worse. Of course, I'm talking about the concert being cancelled. We talk about it everyday still, but at least this is a sadness that I don't have to handle on my own. In the breakdown entry on my curious thoughts blog, I talk about how we handle things.. you know, breaking down.

Still in the Christmas mood. I think I have some ideas that I can't wait to get started on.

So the mood is right I think for me to try to do some good (with my eating.) I honestly don't think I'll stay under my cals today.. but I'm really gonna try my best. Just had a thought.. I've never done this.. but I think I may have to drop out of my 30min exercise challenge. 1, I don't like to dissappoint people. 2, It's too much for me to do at once. I need to get a handle on my food first.
11:50AM

August 3, 2011 - August Challenge Day 3

8:53PM
Today was the dentist appt. So disappointed that I need two fillings.. I know I'm lucky that that's all I need. With so many people not having any insurance or needing root canals. Went to Taco Bell and had a chocolate croissant from Trader Joe's. So that throws my August Challenge Day 3 out the window. No exercise.. I can at least try for an hour this week.
.. Wow. An hour. This week. I used to do an hour a day. I'm very vulnerable when it comes to food right now. I have no willpower. And exercise is non-existent. I'm still logging my food in everyday which is good. I'm taking it one day at a time. I just gotta get back on track....... Ugh! Ugh! Ugh! Why is it so hard right now?
Damn Mercury! Damn Retrograde!
Today we also went to Michael's. I got a scrapbook for all my memorabilia of my favorite band that I've been collecting. I wanted to do this for some time so that's good. Cutting my hair next week. On another good note, I weighed less this time at the dentist than last time.
9:04PM
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Can I get a little "Thank You?"

I think there's just a little too much negativity and hopelessness going around.. I realize that even in my shock that there's still soo many things to be thankful for!
Right now, I'm thankful for:
-knowing that I'm breathing.. I'm alive and so is everyone else.
-I've lost nearly 40lbs and I know who I lost it for.
-I have such a great mom and sis who love the same things I do.
-My hearing, sight, smell, touch, taste, ability to think, feel, learn and communicate.
-That I found this band and all that comes with it. The intense emotions I feel whether they're for better or worse, in sickness and in health. I'll be there for them.
-MUSIC!
-My sense of humor.
-My house, phone, lights, car, food.. Etc.
-MY LIFE!
-LOVE
-The ability to heal...
Thank you.
1:21AM August 2, 2011
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August 2, 2011 - August Challenge Day 2

1:02AM
In the other room, I hear The Addams' Family theme. Sitting here in bed, completely bummed and somewhat embarrassed. I mean I just marked the trip on my calendar yesterday.. I feel soo sad that I wasn't that excited in the first place, and even more sad to feel relieved that it's been cancelled.
It's no one's fault. I know that.
As for my August Challenge, today doesn't seem to look any brighter. I think I have no willpower today. We'll see. I don't see myself getting in exercise or counting calories. I'm not a quitter but I hate feeling hopeless. I feel like I have nothing to work for. I feel that I'll get back on track, I just don't know when.
Tomorrow I go to the dentist.. yippee. The plan for today is to pick up my grandma and visit my aunt.. And to heal from the shock of what's just transpired. *hint hint*
1:09AM

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8:40PM
This morning there was sadness in the air. Still in shock. A little depressed.
So today we visited my grandma and aunt. Played Parcheesi with the Gone With The Wind theme playing in the background, and then headed off to Mimi's Cafe. We were thinking about Christmas gifts. I'm already excited! As for my August Challenge, today wasn't all that great. I'm only on my second bottle of water! Tomorrow, we go to the dentist.. But I think it'll be okay. BeautIful sunset tonight.. :) Ahh, brings back delightful memories. :) :) I feel stuffed. Tomorrow, I hope to detox. I planned this day for months.. This restaurant, the dessert. Everything. Let's get back on track please.
8:46PM

11:26PM
Sitting in bed, thinking. I had a pretty good night tonight. My mom, sis and I were making jokes and talking. Mainly about the band. :) We love them. I was talking to my mom about the trip being cancelled and she says it feels like there's been a death in the family... She gets choked up. I had to swallow my tears at that moment. When I see the tickets, or the green GA bands from the last concert.. I could just cry. There was many laughs to end the night with and for that, I'm thankful. Good night.
11:31PM

August 1, 2011 - August Challenge Day 1

So it's 12:24AM and I'm sitting in my bed thinking about what goals I should set for myself for this month. I have 28 days until we leave for our trip. About 4 weeks.. I really want to lose 15lbs but that seems damn near impossible with my awful willpower. But that's my goal and I'm stickin' to it.
So to summarize:
Goal 1: At least 210min of exercise per week. Equivalent of 30min a day.
Goal 2: To stay under my calorie goal on myfitnesspal.com every day.
Goal 3: To lose 15lbs by August 29, 2011- - date of departure.

11:30PM
So today was an EPIC FAIL.
Number 1: TOM is in town.
Number 2: I didn't do any exercise.
Number 3: I went over my food calorie intake. (Chinese food, croissants)
Number 4: LAST BUT NOT LEAST -- Not only did I find our that my vacation is not happening after all, my fav band's tour is being cancelled! It's for health reasons. Nothing matters more to me than the well being of this band. I love them. I was just sad about having to break the news to my 'much excited' family. :( We plan to go attend the show once they reschedule.

Today was a month before the actual show. It's all good in the long run I supposed, although I'm officially bummed. I hope all things will work out for the best. Did I also mention I got my band shirt in the mail today? Yikes. That's a major slap in the face, I think.

We visited my aunt, went to the Rose Garden, went to Cherry Hills library, went to Trader Joe's, and to the Corrales Library.. Whew. Plus a couple rounds of Parcheesi. Then, we pretty much ended the night by listening to my wonderful band. :) Oh, I forgot to mention that our pet fish had a batch of guppies today. Ha! :P How I can smile after all this, I'll never know.

..bummed... For now.
11:45PM

July 31, 2011

So today I've decided will be a lazy day. Meaning no exercise.. Blah. I just have to stay under my goal on myfitnesspal.com


Michelle (my sis) is on Zwinky.com.. We're just listening to music. Hmm I'm not sure what I'll be having for dinner. Maybe green beans. Who knows? Maybe Tres Leches. Yum. Not really a dieter's diet but whatever.


Last night (July 30, 2011) I had a weird dream. Being chased by Niska while I was Lady Gaga on a Segway. We were trying to get a ferris wheel in a mall. Wha? Crazy ass dream. Then we were at ***'s concert. I saw kids (Audrey and Brock) from school and asked them what time they got there since they had such good seats. He said midnight and someone else said 3AM.. Maybe it was Audrey. I also saw Mrs. Barron. She made me read handwriting out loud with a microphone. I came back home and changed my clothes. Not cute. I had to pee forever. Michelle and a girl were waiting so we could get back to the show. It was gonna start in an hour. I wondered if our seats would be saved. I had get the batteries. The concert was right over our bridge nearby. I knew we would be going to another concert in a few days so I didn't worry about our not-too-good seats.


2:57Pm

July Stats

So this month I did 1,737 minutes of exercise this month. Equivalent of about 29 hours. Yay! I did about 3.5 more hours of exercise this month that last month. I did break my exercise record of 53 days but that's okay. Once again, starting tomorrow I will begin my August challenge. I did gain 5lbs by the end of the day, but I plan on losing them in Aug. 2011. I gotta get ready for my trip. :)


We got our camera in the mail yesterday for the trip and I finally ordered my band shirt for the concert.
Ummm.. all I can say about July is that I'm glad it's over. Time to start fresh. And hopefully no cheating this month with food until the trip.


Goodbye July

Challenge

So starting tomorrow August 1, 2011, I'm starting a challenge to exercise at least 30 minutes everyday! I know I can do this. I still have to calculate how many minutes I exercised this month. In 29 days, (i think) I leave for my trip to Colorado. I want to look my best and above all, I want to lose 15lbs. I know that seems like a lot but I've done it once before. Cat's (Kelly) sleeping next to me.

Random pic of the cats.      ♫♫♪♪ "She's the one ya'll love to hate" ♫♫♪♪

 

This is a random pic of TN.  My next destination in life.  For inspiration ;)

So this is like an online diary..

So this will be the blog in which I'll write what's happening throughout my day. I don't honestly believe I'll write everyday but this'll be the place for it. My other blogs seem to have titles for each post, I don't think I should require a title to write what I'm having for dinner, but just a date. :) Here we go.