August 24, 2011 - August Challenge Day 24

1:13PM

A lot has been going on recently! The good news ... I've totally maintained my weight even though I haven't been eating any different. My fillings are finally done! I actually had a good experience this time. It's bittersweet since that makes me realize how much I was getting ripped off before. Thanks Dr. Meyer/s. Last but not least, I signed up for a GED prep course. At universalclass.com. I'm on my way ladies and gentlemen.  Today is my 100th day in a row logging on MFP. It is also 3 months and 1 day until Thanksgiving. Which means, I have 3 months to lose about 25lbs. I want my weightloss to be noticeable when my older sisters come to town. All in all, I'm feeling accomplished. :) I even got Michelle another gift about two days ago. I came upon it in a Smithsonian magazine. And no, it's not jewelry. Rainbow anyone? Can fairies come to play? Let's read and see!

I might go to a restaurant later but I just be ordering soup. :) Feeling hungry right now, and a little tired. Au Revoir!

1:24PM

--Ahh! Last night's dream consisted of Cindy and us at a store.. leaving it during the day. Then later it was night a mansion. She said she was coming for Christmas but we reminded her it was for Thanksgiving.. I was late-night snacking on hot dogs and too much mustard on a plate. I was scared. There was lighting. Mom woke up and I think she caught me eating..

Hmm ... there's flan in the fridge ...

1:26PM

August 11, 2011 - August Challenge Day 11

Today's Day 11. The scale was on my side today. I have no idea how that happened. Today I'm not gonna wish anything because I know I do better when I don't make any promises. Last night I dream of being at a gas station getting Coke Zero for the people I was traveling with. But there wasn't any.. There was some organic looking bottles that Michelle said reminded her of me. There were some guys who were willing to help me find the Coke but I assured them that it wasn't there. Another dream I had was that we were collecting things around the house. Nail polish and colored pencils are the only things that I can remember. Some of them belonged to my grandma. People came over and gave us the 3rd degree.. They obviously assumed that we weren't treating our grandma right. I hated it! I think she was in on it or something.

Anyway yesterday we went to Mimi's Cafe and I must say I had a splendid time. The food was terrific and there was amazing service. Thanks Jeff Trainer. It's such a coincidence that our waiter's name was Jeff Trainer because I was watching Working Girl yesterday and the guy in the movie's name is Jack Trainer. Ah! I also watched Born Yesterday. Seems like I've been in a Melanie Griffith mood lately.

I had a fight with Michelle.. I hate when that happens. Seems like we do that a lot. She's always assuming stuff about me and I freakin' hate it! Yesterday she claimed that the only reason I've been backing up our Blazer is because she assumes I want to drive it TN.. Just like C. I got soo angry! Today she assumed that I didn't like a joke she said or something.. And that I liked these girls in a picture and that's why I didn't want to delete them..

Whatever.. last night we watched the Shania Twain movies we have of her. I love her..well the old her. I grew up with her. She's so beautiful. I think she'll be another inspiration for my weightloss. Right now I hear Michelle ripping papers up in her room. I wonder what the hell she's doing in there because I know she's mad at me. Happy Birthday Francine! My fellow *** buddy! Yesterday was Janelle's b-day but I didn't make as quite of a big deal over it.. XD
5:23PM

August 10, 2011 - August Challenge Day 10

12:57PM
Yesterday I tried to enter Day 9 from my ipod, but when I added the pic, I guess it just didn't work. Sad that it looks like I missed a day but whatever.

As for yesterday, food-wise.. need I say anything I haven't said before? It didn't go well. As for today, seems like I've gained a little. Ugh I can't shake it. Today I'm gonna try my hardest! I sound stupid I think. I keep saying that I'm going to succeed but I can't even behave for ONE day. I hoping today will be the day. Yesterday, we ran some errands. Went to Wal-Mart, the Corrales library and then to Rose Garden. Our favorite little Chinese food joint. I watched A Nightmare On Elm Street. The new one. And then I watched Curse Of The Golden Flower. Read a little of The Bad Queen. I'm a little more than halfway done.

Today I woke up with a smile on face. I had a good dream. In the dream I was helping Paul and his friend with the internet. I had to use my iPod and somehow I had to go through my Facebook page to get to like, Google, or something. Next thing you know we're at my house on the kitchen floor. Paul\'s in the dining room, watching us. His friend with the golden hair, lovingly touched my cheek and then started fixing my earrings. My sister walked out of her door and saw him touching me. It looked as if he had just kissed me. I didn't want her thinking that, so I got all nervous. But he just kept fixing my earring as if she wasn't there. She walked back in her room and that was that. Then he said something kind of loud and it woke my mom up. I had to yell something back at her like "good night" or something. Then she walked in and asked me about the internet. She didn't even care that I was on the floor with two boys in the house.

I think two days ago, I said I was going to write down the 4 dreams I had.. But I only remember one. Paul was in a classroom. I handed him a bag of cut up bananas and they were all soggy and gross. I was walking out and he yelled something about the bananas that embarassed me. Then I sat down next to him and he was painting a tree with blood. It was beautiful but at the bottom is was blue. Didn't look like blood but I knew it was.
1:08PM

1:43PM
Ahh good news!! I just remembered my dreams. Because of my genius to email them to myself so I wouldn't forget. AND.. I just emailed one of my favorite authors. The author of The Bad Queen - Carolyn Meyer! Yes, ladies and gentlemen Carolyn Meyer is a all-time favorite. I've practically grown up with her books. Specifically her "royal" books. I love all things renaissance and royal. Marie Antoinette and Anne Boleyn are two of my favorite people. :) And yes, she written amazing books on both. Actually, The Bad Queen is about Marie Antoinette.

As for the dreams (charms) one was where I was in the parking lot and I saw C standing by his car. I approached him slowly. The car was not new and it was black. I called his name but he proceeded to get in. I called again, louder this time. He got out his car and looked at me. He smiled I think. I told him that I didn't want to be one of those crazy fans.. but that I absolutely loved him. When he heard this, he walked towards me for a hug. I told my insides burned and that I was nervous. He hugged me longer. I told him my hands were fucking numb. I think later in the dream I knew that I had a piece of paper and a camera lol. I wanted to sign, but I felt like just another stupid fan of his. He was very sweet.
Another dream I had was that we were at a Chinese food restaurant. I ordered fried rice with lo mein on top. Big plate. I was with mom, Michelle and TL. Two girls came up to us and asked if we wanted a cigarette.. I wanted to say yes. They walked out. I ran after them.. and pretended to return their lipgloss and asked for that cigarette once I was out of my family's sight.  I walked back inside and hid the cig in my pocket.
Another dream was that I was rearranging or cleaning the fridge. Michelle was behind me. I saw a couple desserts in there. I remember carrot cake. She didn't want to mess with it. I accidently dropped it but it was in a container so it was okay...

Just got a wonderful reply from Mrs. Meyer. She understands my story.. just what I needed. :) Maybe... just maybe. never mind.
2:00PM ~ Michelle's still sleeping..

August 7, 2011 - August Challenge Day 7

1:47PM
I got up later than I like. Yesterday, I kind of went overboard at the last minute. Protein shakes.. hmm I can't remember what else. But the absolutely fantastic news is that the scale didn't go up, which if it had I would've rightfully deserved it. So I'm thanking God, because each day that the scale is cooperating I know it's a sign of encouragement. Spaghetti tonight, ugh with Texas toast. Shouldn't be good. I think I need to call my mom for more lettuce.

Kelly (the cat) is right in my way of the computer.. She just sat down. Today she groomed the little one even though she doesn't like him. She hisses at him, growls, but yet cats still have that, idk, motherly instinct?? They take care of each other. Whether they growl through the process or not. Families are like that too I guess. At least mine is.

Yesterday I bought two Christmas gifts for my sis. Feeling good about that. Lately I've been in a walking mood. I MISS IT! It was my time to get out and think... or just sing. I love to sing.

Is anyone reading this?? I feel like Julie in Julie & Julia where she felt as if she were sending things into this massive void. I mean this is doing some good for me. Keeping me a little bit on track but I would really like some feedback!

I hear a cat mewing outside..it's breaking my heart. Nearly 2PM and I feel like I've got a handle on Day 7.. of course the day isn't over yet and I crave sweets at night. I used to not crave anything! We'll see. I will, of course, try my best. Hmm. That thought is odd. I haven't really tried my best.. That MUST change. I have the best resistance out of anyone I've ever known! I'm gonna post this and come back to write my chaoctic dream of mine. I must've had a pretty active brain last night.
2:00PM

August 6, 2011 - August Challenge Day 6

11:46AM
So, number one, I'm proud I've been keeping up with my blogging. Even though it's only been 6 days.. I know this is a true achievement. Number two, I lost weight! Still trying to catch up to where I was but by the end of the month, I should see some new numbers on that scale! :D

As for my August Challenge, yesterday went pretty well all day long. Except I gave in to the corn bread and then the chips, the salsa, avocado, a chocolate protein shake I did not need. All in all I was prbably at 13-1,400 calories. Though I stopped calculating after the tuna patties. But I did get in all my water! Yes! That's a major plus! Even though I had to get up and pee in the middle of the night, :/ I'd rather do that than retain water from sodium. Bleh!

My little horoscope that I get sent to my phone said to not be so pessimistic. My glass is more than half full. It's true.. Everything's been working out recently. Except for the damn dentist and concert. But even with that, a lot worse could've gone down.

I think today will be another good day food-wise. It's gonna be hard to calculate tostadas. But they'll be soo worth it! Always are.

I've been in the movie-watching, Christmas gift-giving, craft making mood recently.. and it feels pretty good. :)
11:55AM

12:13PM
I was just roaming around myfitnesspal and I came across a girl who had a goal set for the date of the concert. I choked up. Couldn't breathe and got sad. Tearing up. Even to myself, I sound like an immature brat. But I really was affected. I don't know.. Just thought I'd say this.
12:16PM

5:14PM
Just remembered my dream from last night. I was at a drive-through and I saw Jessie and the black cat in a car. I remember not being able to make a big deal about it because I didn't want anyone else to see them. Light blue, old car. They looked normal.

Just finished watching Crash..
5:16PM

August 5, 2011 - August Challenge Day 5

2:06PM
So my goal for this week (starting today) was staying under my calorie goal of 1,200. So far, so good. My sis had a stroke of genius last night and came up with the idea of tuna fish patties. Yummy! And low calorie! Yay! Today if I stick with the plan, I should eat only 468cals. Very low, I know.. I just need to shock the body a little. I might give up and have some corn bread. The scale was pleasing today! Yay! I actually lost weight. All I did was some cleaning.
I had a pretty nice dream last night. Michelle and I plus some other guy were throwing frisbees on the beach. I was holding Razz in my left hand. I showed Michelle a trick to throw it better. Twist of the wrist. It was a yellow frisbee.. Maybe some blue and red ones too. Then I was helping Michelle through a spooky house kind of thing. It was school but it looked like we were on a cruise ship. No water though. We stopped off at the bathroom. I was worried the bell was gonna ring. There was water dripping at the counter, we sat down and played piano on it. I was helping Michelle with it. More like showing her.. I was better. Then a guy came in. Wearing black and white. Kind of like Simon's outfit. His eyes were brown. He was very mature. I liked him. He sat down to do the piano with us. He was surprised I made so little mistakes. There was a ticker. The bell rang and he stood up. I hugged him and asked him what grade he was in. He said 10th. Then Michelle piped and said I was supposed to be in 11th. I was so disappointed. I wished he was older. (In real life I wouldn't have cared, he was so attractive. I didn't even see his face.. But damn. He acted so hot.) Then we were taking tests in a closed environment. I didn't like it. I had to find a group. Then we needed to make a group of 5 back in the classroom. I saw Krystal and maybe Cheyenne. We had two girls too many.
Cute guy, tuna patties, and music. Good start to the day.
2:23PM
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July 31, 2011

So today I've decided will be a lazy day. Meaning no exercise.. Blah. I just have to stay under my goal on myfitnesspal.com


Michelle (my sis) is on Zwinky.com.. We're just listening to music. Hmm I'm not sure what I'll be having for dinner. Maybe green beans. Who knows? Maybe Tres Leches. Yum. Not really a dieter's diet but whatever.


Last night (July 30, 2011) I had a weird dream. Being chased by Niska while I was Lady Gaga on a Segway. We were trying to get a ferris wheel in a mall. Wha? Crazy ass dream. Then we were at ***'s concert. I saw kids (Audrey and Brock) from school and asked them what time they got there since they had such good seats. He said midnight and someone else said 3AM.. Maybe it was Audrey. I also saw Mrs. Barron. She made me read handwriting out loud with a microphone. I came back home and changed my clothes. Not cute. I had to pee forever. Michelle and a girl were waiting so we could get back to the show. It was gonna start in an hour. I wondered if our seats would be saved. I had get the batteries. The concert was right over our bridge nearby. I knew we would be going to another concert in a few days so I didn't worry about our not-too-good seats.


2:57Pm