August 29, 2011 - August Challenge Day 29

5:02PM

     Just lost two lbs today.. although I also just gained that! Whatever.. this is just a quick entry because my mom and sis could step through the door at any minute. So I've been working on my GED class. I'm finally at my social studies section... soo much to read. It's okay though; at lest I'm taking care of business. Sad news: today would've been the day we left for the trip to Colorado.. the trip with the concert.. I can't wait until they reschedule the show!!!

There's so much to do! I'm trying to get my license, get a haircut, get a pair of converse, get my GED, lose 25lbs by Thanksgiving, and I have about 1,000 books to read!! I just might explode. Yesterday I saw 3 cute guys while I was on my walk. 3! One even talked to me, lol he said.... "excuse me." Well there ya go.  The next fews days may be depressing knowing that I should be on my trip but it's fine.

The good news is August is almost over.. wait that isn't very good. That isn't very good at all. I'm running out of time to lose the weight before my sisters (and now maybe my aunt and cousin too) get here and I wanted to take my GED test in November..... yikes. Too many things at once. I'll just keep trying my best. It's the only choice I have.

What I really need to do is meditate.. It really gets me focused and on track. Maybe I'll do it tonight. Although I'm in movie-mode again.. *sighs*

It rained today.. hard, with creepy thunder too. I think I've said what I needed to say. Oh yeah, the guy was wearing green. Actually two of them were. One on the bridge and the one who spoke to me. The other guy on the bridge was wearing a hat and a white shirt. I hope I didn't come off as mean when I passed the guy, I mean I did have my headphones on.. I did smile at him. Not sure if he saw it. XD

5:10PM

August 24, 2011 - August Challenge Day 24

1:13PM

A lot has been going on recently! The good news ... I've totally maintained my weight even though I haven't been eating any different. My fillings are finally done! I actually had a good experience this time. It's bittersweet since that makes me realize how much I was getting ripped off before. Thanks Dr. Meyer/s. Last but not least, I signed up for a GED prep course. At universalclass.com. I'm on my way ladies and gentlemen.  Today is my 100th day in a row logging on MFP. It is also 3 months and 1 day until Thanksgiving. Which means, I have 3 months to lose about 25lbs. I want my weightloss to be noticeable when my older sisters come to town. All in all, I'm feeling accomplished. :) I even got Michelle another gift about two days ago. I came upon it in a Smithsonian magazine. And no, it's not jewelry. Rainbow anyone? Can fairies come to play? Let's read and see!

I might go to a restaurant later but I just be ordering soup. :) Feeling hungry right now, and a little tired. Au Revoir!

1:24PM

--Ahh! Last night's dream consisted of Cindy and us at a store.. leaving it during the day. Then later it was night a mansion. She said she was coming for Christmas but we reminded her it was for Thanksgiving.. I was late-night snacking on hot dogs and too much mustard on a plate. I was scared. There was lighting. Mom woke up and I think she caught me eating..

Hmm ... there's flan in the fridge ...

1:26PM

August 19, 2011 - August Challenge Day 19

2:13PM

So I must admit that yesterday's weigh-in certainly didn't go the way it should've. I gained a pound. But today I lost that pound. Yesterday I went out for a 15min walk to Roady's. We were talking if we wanted to go a restaurant.. They were seriously considering McDonald's since it was right next door but I actually would've prefered to go back home and have my tuna salad. We did go back home, I had my salad, we played Parcheesi.. and then I ended up cheating again. On peanut butter and scrambled eggs. Soo yummy. I haven't had scrambled eggs in soo long. Just egg whites. Definitely not the same thing!

So last night, my sis and I were throwing things at the ceiling fan.. long story short we had a lot of laughs but it woke my mom. Finally when she got sick of it, she threatened school. This made me mad and definitely killed our buzz. Then I realized I wanna hurry up and get my GED while I'm still 16. It sounds better that way. So I'm thinking November will be when I take my test. On top of that I also realized that I'm soo sick of being in the 200s. I'm bored of not seeing any new numbers! So I've decided I'm gonna do it right untill I get to ONE-derland again and then hopefully I'll continue to do it right.

We'll see how it goes. I don't expect to be perfect.. not like I was in June. I realize that I was only doing so well in June because I was seeing new numbers on that scale. The lowest numbers I'd ever seen. I need to inspire myself again!! I can't wait! Plus I wanna show everyone how cute I really can be! I'll knock everyone's socks off. I swear I will..

2:21PM

August 17, 2011 - August Challenge Day 17

12:18PM
It's been a while since I've last posted. Yesterday was my dad's b-day.. so I called him up. I've watched lots of movies and finished The Bad Queen. Excellent book. But one of the best thing's that have happened to me is that I think I'm finally back on track. I've taken a walk for 3 days straight now and I'm finally staying under my calorie goal! I've been losing weight. 1 pound a day! I'm feeling pretty good right now.

I started getting serious once my mom said my older sisters might be coming to town for Thanksgiving.. this made my sister nervous. So really, the both of us decided we want to lose 30lbs by then. Which means my goal is to be 175 by Thanksgiving. So far I'm already 4lbs in.. but I haven't weighed myself yet. Super excited about that too.

Last night was one of a kind.. When my sis and I headed out for our walk, she was ahead of me by about 10-15ft. I caught up with her and then the race was on. By the time we got back to the house I had to end up taking a shortcut to beat her. One of the most comptetitive walks..ever. Anyway it led to a fight. Then later on, my sis was fighting with my mom about her refund that she needed to get. I ended up solving the problem but I also ended up seeing the gift my sis planned for me. But to make things better I watched Amadeus last night. A classic that I remember my mom watching. I was crying within the first 10min of the movie. I've never cried so much during a movie.. The beautiful music is overwhelming for me. I. just. love. music.

Not sure what else to add except that in less than a week I'll be getting my fillings. I've been watching Lost again, finally. I'm on season 3. Feeling a little hungry and I need a shower. But I think I'm gonna weigh-in soon. That should be pleasing today. :)
12:28PM

August 11, 2011 - August Challenge Day 11

Today's Day 11. The scale was on my side today. I have no idea how that happened. Today I'm not gonna wish anything because I know I do better when I don't make any promises. Last night I dream of being at a gas station getting Coke Zero for the people I was traveling with. But there wasn't any.. There was some organic looking bottles that Michelle said reminded her of me. There were some guys who were willing to help me find the Coke but I assured them that it wasn't there. Another dream I had was that we were collecting things around the house. Nail polish and colored pencils are the only things that I can remember. Some of them belonged to my grandma. People came over and gave us the 3rd degree.. They obviously assumed that we weren't treating our grandma right. I hated it! I think she was in on it or something.

Anyway yesterday we went to Mimi's Cafe and I must say I had a splendid time. The food was terrific and there was amazing service. Thanks Jeff Trainer. It's such a coincidence that our waiter's name was Jeff Trainer because I was watching Working Girl yesterday and the guy in the movie's name is Jack Trainer. Ah! I also watched Born Yesterday. Seems like I've been in a Melanie Griffith mood lately.

I had a fight with Michelle.. I hate when that happens. Seems like we do that a lot. She's always assuming stuff about me and I freakin' hate it! Yesterday she claimed that the only reason I've been backing up our Blazer is because she assumes I want to drive it TN.. Just like C. I got soo angry! Today she assumed that I didn't like a joke she said or something.. And that I liked these girls in a picture and that's why I didn't want to delete them..

Whatever.. last night we watched the Shania Twain movies we have of her. I love her..well the old her. I grew up with her. She's so beautiful. I think she'll be another inspiration for my weightloss. Right now I hear Michelle ripping papers up in her room. I wonder what the hell she's doing in there because I know she's mad at me. Happy Birthday Francine! My fellow *** buddy! Yesterday was Janelle's b-day but I didn't make as quite of a big deal over it.. XD
5:23PM

August 10, 2011 - August Challenge Day 10

12:57PM
Yesterday I tried to enter Day 9 from my ipod, but when I added the pic, I guess it just didn't work. Sad that it looks like I missed a day but whatever.

As for yesterday, food-wise.. need I say anything I haven't said before? It didn't go well. As for today, seems like I've gained a little. Ugh I can't shake it. Today I'm gonna try my hardest! I sound stupid I think. I keep saying that I'm going to succeed but I can't even behave for ONE day. I hoping today will be the day. Yesterday, we ran some errands. Went to Wal-Mart, the Corrales library and then to Rose Garden. Our favorite little Chinese food joint. I watched A Nightmare On Elm Street. The new one. And then I watched Curse Of The Golden Flower. Read a little of The Bad Queen. I'm a little more than halfway done.

Today I woke up with a smile on face. I had a good dream. In the dream I was helping Paul and his friend with the internet. I had to use my iPod and somehow I had to go through my Facebook page to get to like, Google, or something. Next thing you know we're at my house on the kitchen floor. Paul\'s in the dining room, watching us. His friend with the golden hair, lovingly touched my cheek and then started fixing my earrings. My sister walked out of her door and saw him touching me. It looked as if he had just kissed me. I didn't want her thinking that, so I got all nervous. But he just kept fixing my earring as if she wasn't there. She walked back in her room and that was that. Then he said something kind of loud and it woke my mom up. I had to yell something back at her like "good night" or something. Then she walked in and asked me about the internet. She didn't even care that I was on the floor with two boys in the house.

I think two days ago, I said I was going to write down the 4 dreams I had.. But I only remember one. Paul was in a classroom. I handed him a bag of cut up bananas and they were all soggy and gross. I was walking out and he yelled something about the bananas that embarassed me. Then I sat down next to him and he was painting a tree with blood. It was beautiful but at the bottom is was blue. Didn't look like blood but I knew it was.
1:08PM

1:43PM
Ahh good news!! I just remembered my dreams. Because of my genius to email them to myself so I wouldn't forget. AND.. I just emailed one of my favorite authors. The author of The Bad Queen - Carolyn Meyer! Yes, ladies and gentlemen Carolyn Meyer is a all-time favorite. I've practically grown up with her books. Specifically her "royal" books. I love all things renaissance and royal. Marie Antoinette and Anne Boleyn are two of my favorite people. :) And yes, she written amazing books on both. Actually, The Bad Queen is about Marie Antoinette.

As for the dreams (charms) one was where I was in the parking lot and I saw C standing by his car. I approached him slowly. The car was not new and it was black. I called his name but he proceeded to get in. I called again, louder this time. He got out his car and looked at me. He smiled I think. I told him that I didn't want to be one of those crazy fans.. but that I absolutely loved him. When he heard this, he walked towards me for a hug. I told my insides burned and that I was nervous. He hugged me longer. I told him my hands were fucking numb. I think later in the dream I knew that I had a piece of paper and a camera lol. I wanted to sign, but I felt like just another stupid fan of his. He was very sweet.
Another dream I had was that we were at a Chinese food restaurant. I ordered fried rice with lo mein on top. Big plate. I was with mom, Michelle and TL. Two girls came up to us and asked if we wanted a cigarette.. I wanted to say yes. They walked out. I ran after them.. and pretended to return their lipgloss and asked for that cigarette once I was out of my family's sight.  I walked back inside and hid the cig in my pocket.
Another dream was that I was rearranging or cleaning the fridge. Michelle was behind me. I saw a couple desserts in there. I remember carrot cake. She didn't want to mess with it. I accidently dropped it but it was in a container so it was okay...

Just got a wonderful reply from Mrs. Meyer. She understands my story.. just what I needed. :) Maybe... just maybe. never mind.
2:00PM ~ Michelle's still sleeping..

August 8, 2011 - August Challenge Day 8

6:22PM
I only have time for a quick post. Today was kind of chaotic but I'm glad it's mainly over. As for my challenge I did extraordinarly well. I even got in a 15min walk with my mom as we went to pick up the car from the shop. We went to like 13 different places. Plus I even got it a gift for my sis. With trips to the library, Staples, Wal-Mart, the post office.. ahh. It's good to be in a nice air conditioned home. :) Soo happy with how I did today. I even got started on reading a book last night. The Bad Queen. Looks pretty good so far. It's about Marie Antoinette. Which I saw the movie again last night. Not sure what else to say. We might pick up my grandma tomorrow. For now, I just wanna curl up with my book or watch a movie. Good day even though we found out our radiator was cracked. We managed to get it fixed on short notice. Mercury is definitely in retrograde but at least we've been able to remedy the situations. Day 8 = Mission Accomplished.

Yesterday I also watched Shining Through.. Good movie. I know my mom loves it. Hmm.. Feeling kind of nervous that the "fam bam" is so nearby, with my mom watching a movie and my sis laying down. I'll call it a day.. A pretty good one.

6:28PM